Monday, January 29, 2007

Missing the carefree days of highschool…


January 29th, 2007 by gangwarily

Sometime in January… I miss my High School life… After Highschool outside the four walls of our home, I admit I don’t have a life at all…but its ok I can bare it anyway…busy in school…I am disheartened most of the time…feeling cynical, (hala baka matuluyan ako…)basta it’s a plain boring life… I miss my carefree days in High School…my ol’ friends, the simple kababawan that would really make us happy, nakakamiss kase now you can’t be mababaw anymore or you’ll receive a painful consequence, I felt like I’m in a different dimension, people have their own expectations of you, everybody seems to care when no ones really true, all are interested only for their own welfare…what really hurts is that everybody’s wearing their own mask…don’t know whom to trust, they are all playing… and since I’m not even familiar with the game I am trapped, I need to harden myelf to be able to find my way out and win this game. I am often studying what moves to take next, that even sometimes I forgot to be me and end up hating myself even more, and that for me is losing and going deeper into the trap…Lately I’m confused…I felt like I am losing everything that I have and I am starting to become empty…promise I’m in the verge of insanity, ano bay an…Depression ba ito? Hayy nako…Andrama ko na…

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