November 25 ‘08
Happy Birthday to Artistic Worshiper!
I finally finished reading the Twilight Saga by Stephenie Meyer, I really like the first book, I don’t care what everybody says (na para syang ‘teleserye!’), though I find the second book very predictable, while the third one is not that good either (for me atleast) but I come to like the fourth book, Breaking Dawn, yiii…and just like everyone else I loved Edward Cullen too but its as good as the first book after that I’m all for Jacob Black…I think because Edward is simply too perfect…while Jacob is healthy to be with and comfortable. Whatever, anyway I know people consider twilight as their bible or a prayer book even (^_^). In my case, it has been my escape, a temporary change of reality (too much?! not really…) I never thought that my first two weeks back to school would alienate me, -“after the heartwarming welcome and greetings”- it’s back to facing my classes which most of the time I don’t know anyone, I thought when I go back to school I would just pick up where I left of, I guess it’s more complicated than that now. I’m still taking my time to get use to it all. I’m even playing with the idea of using it to my advantage and so I won’t have to answer the most uncomfortable existential question of my life “Tep labas tayo! Sama ka?!” or whatever combination of that, Syempre nakakahiya rin naman na paulit ulit na tumatangi. At first I always use the truth as an excuse but I can no longer accept people’s response to that, that I simply avoid confrontation of this sort.
If TVXQ helped me get away from my year long vacation with my sanity still intact, this past two weeks I owe a huge deal of gratitude to the twilight saga and of course to Ms. Stephenie Meyer for writing the book, and with it I had my escape from my temporary crazy reality. Having said that, the pain that -the now taking reality in my life- is more than the pain cause by my sudden estrangement at school it won’t even reach ¼ of it, it’s also no comparison to a heartbreak caused by a lover nor of a friend’s betrayal but of something I will never discuss.
2ndI still have no idea how to finish everything about my Radio production, my topic is business economy…ahhh… (bakit di nalang naging showbiz, music or even foreign, fine, I’ll accept even politics and educational…but business and economy?! Damn…)
Nabasa ko nadin yung blog ni Bella about me, WOW! Papaiyakin mo nanaman ako, hmmm…we need to talk about a lot of things ahahah…of course with all the negative things you stated in your blog, most of them piqued my soft side and I’m getting all defensive here, though I won’t refute them, because it’s probably right as you see it, but I really feel like defending myself here:
I know I’m boring, and I enjoy me being boring, I never got comfortable being the joker. And being the center of attention freaks me, but hearing it, reading it rather, still didn’t prepared me from getting offended. Haha! Okay, maybe it’s also due to my fair share of delusions, just because people put up with me, but why didn’t I see that coming? I always know that people would stop laughing when I said something, or because I articulated things wrongly people would give me the *blink*blink* expressions.
Oh well, its David’s job to be the humorous guy anyway, I was never trained for that! I can’t understand myself why am I getting all worked up here?!
To anyone who knows me, I would advice you to please do not expect me to fill any silence, especially when you are in a “happy and good mood” I guarantee you a complete destruction of that mood. That’s an advance warning! And to those people who laugh at me instead of with me…I don’t know what to tell you guys…
ME without common sense…ouch! Thanks Bell! Well I don’t know, I always think it defends to who I’m with.
With Bell, Mac and Sarah, because I’m usually happy with them and really doing my best to apply the words “Loosen up” I most definitely often forgot my common sense somewhere else, and since with intelligent people like them, I embraced the role of being the spoiled one, the outcast and the no common sense and usually, they talk about a different world where I know none of…haha…but I’m learning…gaaaah…
Aggressive, that’s one funny way to describe me bells, I guess most of my principles backfired fighting for that one huh?! Gaaaaah, it’s the first and hopefully the last time I would humiliate myself. Did I regret that?! I’m not realizing it yet. And at the time and I think even now, I’m still incline to believe that its worth it.
To her other disclaimers I accept them all, yes I am often grammatically wrong, and I have no excuse for that, but plain stupidity. And other attitude that I forgot to mention all of them are true, though I wouldn’t have wanted it to be publicized because I always like people not having an inkling of who I am, especially of my weaknesses, I already am insecure enough without everyone knowing about them, now it would be even harder to put on a mask of bravery.
I know you have the best of intentions when you post your entry for me, and WOW, it’s a whole post dedicated only for me, so thanks and I know you always say that your glad I’m putting up with all your crap but hey it’s a two way thing right?! You’re doing the same thing to the boring ol’ me. Now I get to see the hidden side of my Johari Window.
And thanks for declaring to the World Wide Web your love for me despite my imperfections. That’s really sweet!
Edward Cullen is all yours Bella!
