Another day in my life…

February 25th, 2007 by gangwarily

I wake up early and a little disappointed…we have class today, my siblings get to stay at home, because its Laguna day, well I need to move on, so my dad drive the car he has an appointment and so I was absent in my Religious studies subject, because when I finally arrive at Beda I’m already an hour late (traffic the estimated time exceeded) so I spent the last 30minutes in the library, good thing my FPM group doesn’t have class that time, when they saw me, they are all smiles…when I sit down they said, hey girl, you look really wasted, do you want to comb your hair?!

Huh?! ahhh ok…

Then Isabel continue her story to Martina and Sarah…

Sarah finally reacts…

Tep pressure…Isabel’s story, nose bleed…can’t relate…it’s about anime…

So I asked…what’s it all about?

Laughs…I’ll start again from the top…

When she finally arrive to the part where she left before I ask her to repeat it again, brother finally wake up from his slumber, remove his huge headphone and ask what’s it all about?

Gaaaahhh…Ok, I’ll start again

All laughing…

Martina, Sarah and I can only grab our hair and shout…pressure…(kailangan kapag nakikinig ka ng story from manga nakalugay yung hair mo…para madaling pag balingan ng galit kapag di mo na kinakaya…)

Well its about Chinese tale…its quite interesting but all the names Isabel had told us, even wrote to the paper for us to grasp it easily, pao pei (wrong spelling pa.) is the only word I can remember, its their power, or something like that…we’ll I’m looking forward on reading the manga of it, hehehe, yey you’ll burn it for us…

The bell rang…

Everybody’s disappointed, we have class, I have to say goodbye because they are not my blockmates, I am a lost soul (sorry na po sarah next time kukunin ko na same schedule niyo para di nako naliligaw.)I am already in the third floor climbing the stairs of the fourth when a familiar face told me; you’re my classmate in Technical Writing right? We will have our class in Bellarmine…located at the 2^nd floor…when she said that…I was…huh? Ah ok…(totally slow…I’m still absorbing everything…I even forgot to say thank you)then when I went with them, its close, we waited outside for 20 minutes and nothing, my blockmates already teased me for being absent, they said that I’m already changing and they even sang “I was born to be bad…” finally someone notify us that our professor is absent (it’s the first time she leave an absent so we are all surprised.)

Inside my head: Whaaattt…we don’t have class, what will I do? My FPM group has their class na, I’ll be alone…then it’s decided…I will spent the whole time eating at the cafeteria…(which did not actually happened)

Since everybody were so happy that our professor is absent we all made our own speculations of what she might did, and we come to conclude that she have decided to run for senator and she have an independent party of one person. We leave the matter at rest with such satisfying conclusion…

At the cafeteria…

Too crowded, it’s only 11am why is the canteen full of people, its unusual, then I remember it’s because the election is tomorrow all the candidates with their campaign managers are staying there and of course if one will absent the rest will follow, I was hoping to have a pretty peaceful time in the Caf. But it turns out I need to listen to my ipod with its earphones hanging very still into its dear life…I have to suffer…the agony is too painful…(andrama matitiyaga lang sa earphones eh,)It’s like I am using a radio and I need to look for a good signal for me to hear the music clearly, papansin talaga, when I finally found a good position for the wire of my earphones to work well I sat still and picture me sitting still for one and a half hour, while writing that’s the only exit for me to forgot about my numbing drama (pinapahirapan kase ang sarili), after that my body and arms are so numb, when my FPM group finally joined me at 12:30 for lunch break, I found a reason not to use my Ipod anymore ehehhe…I have some people I can talk to. While eating I am just observing the whole group, our Ohana originally consist of 5 people but today we have 3 special guest of course all are anime fanatics and so we are a little louder than usual, Isabel realizes we need pictures, so time for picture taking, we are 8 in the table how can we fit on Isabel’s cp frame? we end up not having picture taken as a whole by 4 nalang…pero mahirap parin…then happy na sana when I find out that AE and Slipper is missing my beloved and dearest Keychains…Melody is the only one left on my cellphone huhuhu…nobody can relate…its so important for me…while they continue laughing I can’t pretend to be having fun anymore…I am mourning for AE and Slipper…then a little later I saw them under the table, so I am back on track again…ehehehe…brother made a joke, we laugh…Isabel’s fake laugh gave Martina an idea…So there she goes singing JT’s sexyback with a limited dancing (we are sitting kase so she can’t dance) take note it’s the cow version of sexyback, this time she didn’t fake it, she can’t stop laughing any longer, we are worried about her…she doesn’t seem to be breathing, then again she’s still alive and laughing with tears falling from her face…kamusta naman yun? I hug her and cover our face with folder because we are laughing so hard, I laugh because of her, she can’t stop…then after that, brother said are you a metro sexual? I was *blink*blink* I just finished laughing…(again I am slow…) Isabel then reacts Whaatt? Were not dead yet…now everybody HUH?! She said Morgue, morgue sexual for dead? then she realize and I realize she’s wrong we laugh again…the others didn’t figure it out…so there, they were looking at us…Ok cover your faces again…STOP LAUGHING!

Then the

Bell

rang…

Oh it’s our major subject…we have quiz next Tuesday…I have to review what I’ve learned then…

After dismissal we stayed a little longer in our class and Isabel is hyper active, I can’t believe her…haha! Its actually 3 against one because of her energy today we need to neutralize her…but we didn’t win…*sigh*

In the Car…

Martina Sarah and Isabel were making a ngongo accent I was laughing until I said…guys nose bleed…they continue their conversation…guys I am literally nose bleeding it’s not an expression…then they all are oh my gosh, your nose is bleeding…

(napaka lamig naman kase…last time brother went home early because he was dizzy, we think its heat stroke and now my nose bleed…naku…)

Making my assignment…

After I almost completed paper…my laptop suddenly died…gaaahhhhhh…I haven’t saved it yet…so I have to start over again…pphheeewww…What a day…

Kung hei fat choi, everybody…

February 18th, 2007 by gangwarily

Chinese New Year… Kung Hei Fat Choi!

So since I’m only one percent Chinese, and don’t really have Chinese upbringing I’m not really affected of this holiday, though I still want to great people, ehehehhe, anyday can always be a New Year right? Any day is available when we want to change.

What is the best way to spend Sunday, it’s really hot today and yesterday, boredom is eating me whole, then I remember that I have the wallflower saved in a CD from Isabel, today is the best day to read it, eheheh

Commercial: I now LOVE Takano Kyohei…weeeeehh

Ok…now I’m eating ice cream to cool myself down, its really hot, weird, (Oh I hope I can fly to Florida they are having a good weather lately…15 degrees Celsius would be great…) The ice cream is Dulce De Leche it taste like caramel, I want chocolate but this is fine for now, *sigh* I have cravings for chocolates its been going for months now…

Belated Happy Birthday Chai, I didn’t get to greet you, I thought you already leave to study abroad, anyways I didn’t forgot your birthday, syempre its also my mom’s birthday and of course its Valentines day, nyaahahah, we’ll I’m really going to miss you, basta whatever happens I will be praying for your happiness, so take care of yourself ok? And may God continue to guide and bless you!

…

February 16th, 2007 by gangwarily

My epiphany….weeeeeeehhhhh

*WINK*

Rampage…

2007 by gangwarily

Feb 08 ‘07

Yeah…I saw my friends…weeeeeeeehhhh…I am so happy though sad too, but anyways I want to talk about the happy one’s ehehhe , I saw Aby, Mitzi, Ana, Annie, Analyn, kuya Pat and Nanny migoy…also jocel and others…but these people I mentioned, are the one’s who are close to me, back in my highschool days…*hug* oh my gosh, I don’t want to leave mitzi’s side anymore…I miss her so much…but…I hate you now…lokohin daw ba ko? she learned so much from Kuya Sim she’s good in tripping now, before I can tell easily when she’s trying to trick me but now, wow…I hate both of you…I will never ever believe you guys again ever…but I am so happy…its been 2 years…ehehhe…congrats…I wish you guys the best…oi Ninang ako ha sa kasal…nyahaha…anlabu…at any rate, Aby pumayat ka but you still have that smile, I love your smile, sorry sa mga pagkukulang ko sa inyo ha, sayo lalo na, sobrang di kita natext kahit once for a year now. Mitzi, tumaba daw sya but the truth is pumayat ka nga what’s with your college life people? too much pressure? We use to love eating right? So lets eat more healthy foods, so we can be fit, hmmm Annie, isa pa to bakit pumayat ka din and sobrang tahimik mo na…Ana maganda parin actually mas gumanda ka pa but you still have your hearty laugh with you, I miss that, it still resound in my head until now, heheheh, Analyn super pretty and you should be part of the fashion show, so can I still call you yaya now? Or umangat na yung pwesto mo sa family natin? Eheheh si kuya pat…ay naku what happened bakit parang haggard ka? But I can see you and Analyn both matured, o mali lang ako, you really love each other ha. Eehehehhe, *sigh* ang cute niyo tingnan…Si nanny migoy, you’ve changed, you look very different in a good way, I thought your part of rampage, sabi kase nila kuya Pat, yun talagang mga yun, pinagtri-tripan nanaman ako…ayun I really miss you guys…*sigh* highschool days, I’m smiling but I want to cry…kase when will be the next time I can hug you guys again? After 10 years? Ehn nasaan ka? Why aren’t you there, isa ka pa Avon? Kuya Alvin anong drama ang di mo pagappear dun? Sayang talaga…I miss you all na kase…

Missing the carefree days of highschool…

January 29th, 2007 by gangwarily

Sometime in January… I miss my High School life… After Highschool outside the four walls of our home, I admit I don’t have a life at all…but its ok I can bare it anyway…busy in school…I am disheartened most of the time…feeling cynical, (hala baka matuluyan ako…)basta it’s a plain boring life… I miss my carefree days in High School…my ol’ friends, the simple kababawan that would really make us happy, nakakamiss kase now you can’t be mababaw anymore or you’ll receive a painful consequence, I felt like I’m in a different dimension, people have their own expectations of you, everybody seems to care when no ones really true, all are interested only for their own welfare…what really hurts is that everybody’s wearing their own mask…don’t know whom to trust, they are all playing… and since I’m not even familiar with the game I am trapped, I need to harden myelf to be able to find my way out and win this game. I am often studying what moves to take next, that even sometimes I forgot to be me and end up hating myself even more, and that for me is losing and going deeper into the trap…Lately I’m confused…I felt like I am losing everything that I have and I am starting to become empty…promise I’m in the verge of insanity, ano bay an…Depression ba ito? Hayy nako…Andrama ko na…

Lets talk…

by gangwarily

Jan. 26 ‘07

I’ve notice something, so let’s talk…yes you sino pa ba? Your weird…you kept hurting yourself, you’re good in controlling your feelings that’s good, but aren’t you getting tired of doing that? Di masamang makaramdam noh… Understanding things that you cant accept, Diba mas masakit yun? Mas masakit tanggapin ang bagay na ayaw mo pero naiintindihan mo kaya wala kang magawa kundi ang tangapin? I know that a simple *sigh* from you means so much …I guess I can read that line…it can say so much, much more than words can explain, I want to laugh because now your confused with what you feel…(pun intended) its already mixed, ayan kase…next time try to feel the different feelings ok lang yun natural lang yun noh, it actually makes you a human being…grabe ka…you know exactly how to forbid yourself in feeling the things that you know you can’t be feeling…pwede pala yun no? Your not wearing a mask, because you always try to reach out but nobody just can’t understand even I would admit that I don’t fully understand you, dinadaan mo sa pagiging tahimik ang lahat ng bagay na hindi mo maintindihan at masabi, it seems so simple and yet its not. remember when you told me that you’ll prove that your strong and that you can beat your heart by letting your head decide…ok yan…but I know and I can feel that your feelings are still bothering you, there are times that you can’t help but cry…kahit na ang tingin nila sayo cry baby, I know inside your strong…your disregarding your feelings just to do the things you should…even if it hurts you…you want to do a lot of things but you just can’t, you want to try…but its just a big don’t…ikaw kase napaka masunurin mo eh…I wish that your doing the right thing…and that your wait would become something useful and that someday you’ll find yourself enjoying and free.Goodluck…

Here’s my answer Martina finally…….

December 31st, 2006 by gangwarily

According to kabalarian philosophy… Your name of Stephanie contributes sensitive, creative, and idealistic qualities to your nature that could be expressed in a variety of literary or artistic fields. You desire harmony and refinement in your environment and in all your personal associations. Although mentally quick and intuitive in recognizing the thoughts and feelings of others, you experience a lack of fluency in verbal expression in responding. Although the name Stephanie creates the urge to understand others, we stress that it limits self-expression and self-confidence causing moods. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, heart, lungs and bronchial area. I don’t believe on this but lets see how close it is to my personality…hmm -This is exactly me…back in highschool but people change…here’s the score now…

Your name of Stephanie contributes sensitive, creative, and idealistic qualities to your nature that could be expressed in a variety of literary or artistic fields. pwede ba poem? I kinda abandoned it…because I know I sucks…but hey poem isn’t about writing per se but what you feel right only artistically which I think art doesn’t like me, but right I should continue writing. You desire harmony and refinement in your environment and in all your personal associations. OO naman minsan nga I look stupid na because its just impossible, trying hard talaga ako…so there will be peace on my surroundings and with the people too. But I am broken by this…I’m not this kind of person anymore ayaw ko na kasing magmukhang tanga…(so I guess my name had changed also?) and there are people who are not interested in making peace but on stubbing you at the back…(ooohhh I hate plastic people so much) Although mentally quick and intuitive in recognizing the thoughts and feelings of others, you experience a lack of fluency in verbal expression in responding. Although the name Stephanie creates the urge to understand others, we stress that it limits self-expression and self-confidence causing moods. Wow you read my mind… This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, heart, lungs and bronchial area. Hmmm (lolz…) I have no problem in happiness and contentment not yet in success…(and laughs again)