With all the misfortunes that has befallen our society, I found myself contemplating of my own mortality for the very first time. I have thought of death before, but never this earnest, and it never bothered me. To be perfectly honest I’ve always seen my life as a synonym to endless tiring routines leading nowhere, no purpose but the day to day survival. I always admired from afar the quote from down to a soundless sea novel, which goes, “Crazy is the only way to live and it’s the only sensible way to die.” I was told not to do anything crazy growing up, because its un-lady like. My timidity has been a part of who I am, and I have been trying to break through that bondage for a while now. I want to be courageous enough to live life to the fullest and not care despite the danger of the world perceiving me as disturbed within reason without violating my other paradigm; living as a human being without doing as much damage to others, myself and the environment.
I’ve always been indifferent to death, others say, its due to my age, as I am considered too young still, but I always believe that I never knew life could be worth fighting for…not until now. I’m always scared and paranoid to venture far from my comfort zone. Worrying of other’s opinion has been an inborn disease of mine. But recently I am slowly stepping out of my shell, anxiously enjoying life, learning to slowly let go of my paramount guard while reflecting the advise, a friend once told me; starting to trust life and see the beauty that was always there. But today I got shook from the very core of my being knowing that I could end up dead anytime just like the victims of the bus bombing a couple of days ago, innocent passengers who are not much older than I am. Just like them I am not ready to die just yet, with my diploma few months away from my hands, I still yet to experience the real world. So I concluded my thoughts with prayers for those who had died that day and for their families, and for all of us, who are still living, to continue living as if life is ours for the taking, share the love as we cannot do it without life. And I also prayed that we can get pass this with the ability of still seeing the bright side and won’t be paralyzed by fear.
In life we experience different situations that were given to us to test our abilities, and life would always move on for the better or for worst but I hope for myself and everyone else that this is one of those rare times that life has humbled us and made us understand life better and appreciate it. And one day when we are faced with the Almighty, we can humbly say our gratitude for the life that we are able to live fully.
Jan. 28 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
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Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Forgive my rantings...
*sigh* Ive been having a bad week, (and im feeling sick too) so ive been simply trying to feel better, when someone important to me ask me a favor, so i went out of my way to do what he asked, and when i was able to find the perfect solution and told him about it, he doesn't even listen, looks like he asked others the job and prefer their solution than mine...and for the first time in a week when im finally feeling better when something like this has to happen! i feel shattered. He didn't even listen to what i found out...damn...
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
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Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
Sweet Tragedy
I thought wine was the solution for me to be able to sleep after 2days without it, but apparently finishing one bottle is a stupid thing to do.
I don't care what I felt the next day though, I'm happy, I finally had the time to be with my family and cherish and love life as we always do when we're together. I love them, for always I will.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Monday, May 18, 2009
Reflections
'What matters our creative endless toil,
when at a snatch, oblivion ends the coil?'
-Mephistopheles 'Goethe's Faust'
We are a spark from the great fire that was ignited many billions of years ago.
-Big bang Theory.
Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder, this book took me so long before I actually finished reading it, but it has been good and bad, good because I was able to understand the book properly (I still have to read it, to thoroughly understand it.)Bad because the book is now dilapilated. (poor thing, what more after I read it several more times.)
'Life is both sad and solemn, we are let into a wonderful world, we meet one another here, greet each other-- and wander together for a brief moment. Then we lose each other and disappear as suddenly and unreasonably as we arrived.'
It is now one of my favorite books, my love for philosophy was rekindled, I was overwhelmed once more. There are dull moments in the book too because it sometimes feels like a textbook and most lectures they tackle though simplefied are still hard for me to digest and understand because of its deep meaning.
'History is necessary for the enlightenment of man and the destruction of evil.'
I have always been fascinated with history and it's amazing to look at it in the birds eye view of philosophy, how many discoveries are there, that rose from the most basic and vital questions such as who am I and where did I come from? Man had tried to answer these very questions from the early times since Socrates in Athens (maybe even earlier than that) till this very day.
'If the human brain was simple enough for us to understand, we would still be so stupid that we couldn't understand it.'
With this book I met new great thinkers or philosophers, like Immanuel Kant, Kierkegaard, I didn't even know that Sigmund Freud is a philosopher too, I only heard of his psychoanalyses in my general psychology class. I almost got converted to romanticism's philosophical theory too.
'Tired of the eternal efforts to fight our way through raw matter, we chose another way and sought to embrace the infinite. We went inside ourselves and created a new world.'
Plato made me salute him when he said that men and women are equal, despite his mentor socrates believing otherwise.
The empericist are cool too, and I also learned that the famous Latin line 'carpe diem' was widely used by philosophers in Baroque period.
'So 'to be or not to be' is not the whole question. The question is also who we are. Are we really human beings of flesh and blood? Does our world consist of real things-- or are we encircled by the mind? -Empericist
Even Karl Marx is a philosopher and with his in-depth studies and evidences, no matter how cruel I find his theories they are still correct withouth my prejudice getting in the way, just the right perspective is needed.
'Corgito ergo sum'
'I think therefore I am'
Amongst all the philosophers and philosopical theories they have created, I still haven't made up my mind to whom do I agree, while reading all the theories, I end up concluding that they all have concept that I find myself agreeing to, but intertwined with those theories are the axioms that I disagree too. So I think that with much work, if these theories are balanced in one lesser complex concept then I would have find the theory that is best fitted for me, but of course it cannot only fit for me, because by then it won't be applied universally.
...such stuff as dreams are made on...
I do believe that it is innate in man to ask questions that is why I want to continue my philosophical journey so as to articulate my findings of myself, the world and everything around me comfortably and with more accurate hypothesis. Like any other philosopher such as descartes I have to start from scratch to find where exactly I stand, I also do know that most of my questions have been asked by people far more intelligent than I am, for thousands of years but I would still continue to ask them for philosophers never gives up and I do think that the journey is most enjoyable, for whatever answer I would come across I know it would be overwhelming, disappointing scary and enlightening at the same time and if I let this go and doesn't continue with this journey i would be sure to feel incomplete forever and that is just unacceptable.
'We too are stardust'
There are growing questions that I must ask, so my journey starts here.
'When we look up at the sky, we are trying to find the way to ourselves.'
when at a snatch, oblivion ends the coil?'
-Mephistopheles 'Goethe's Faust'
We are a spark from the great fire that was ignited many billions of years ago.
-Big bang Theory.
Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder, this book took me so long before I actually finished reading it, but it has been good and bad, good because I was able to understand the book properly (I still have to read it, to thoroughly understand it.)Bad because the book is now dilapilated. (poor thing, what more after I read it several more times.)
'Life is both sad and solemn, we are let into a wonderful world, we meet one another here, greet each other-- and wander together for a brief moment. Then we lose each other and disappear as suddenly and unreasonably as we arrived.'
It is now one of my favorite books, my love for philosophy was rekindled, I was overwhelmed once more. There are dull moments in the book too because it sometimes feels like a textbook and most lectures they tackle though simplefied are still hard for me to digest and understand because of its deep meaning.
'History is necessary for the enlightenment of man and the destruction of evil.'
I have always been fascinated with history and it's amazing to look at it in the birds eye view of philosophy, how many discoveries are there, that rose from the most basic and vital questions such as who am I and where did I come from? Man had tried to answer these very questions from the early times since Socrates in Athens (maybe even earlier than that) till this very day.
'If the human brain was simple enough for us to understand, we would still be so stupid that we couldn't understand it.'
With this book I met new great thinkers or philosophers, like Immanuel Kant, Kierkegaard, I didn't even know that Sigmund Freud is a philosopher too, I only heard of his psychoanalyses in my general psychology class. I almost got converted to romanticism's philosophical theory too.
'Tired of the eternal efforts to fight our way through raw matter, we chose another way and sought to embrace the infinite. We went inside ourselves and created a new world.'
Plato made me salute him when he said that men and women are equal, despite his mentor socrates believing otherwise.
The empericist are cool too, and I also learned that the famous Latin line 'carpe diem' was widely used by philosophers in Baroque period.
'So 'to be or not to be' is not the whole question. The question is also who we are. Are we really human beings of flesh and blood? Does our world consist of real things-- or are we encircled by the mind? -Empericist
Even Karl Marx is a philosopher and with his in-depth studies and evidences, no matter how cruel I find his theories they are still correct withouth my prejudice getting in the way, just the right perspective is needed.
'Corgito ergo sum'
'I think therefore I am'
Amongst all the philosophers and philosopical theories they have created, I still haven't made up my mind to whom do I agree, while reading all the theories, I end up concluding that they all have concept that I find myself agreeing to, but intertwined with those theories are the axioms that I disagree too. So I think that with much work, if these theories are balanced in one lesser complex concept then I would have find the theory that is best fitted for me, but of course it cannot only fit for me, because by then it won't be applied universally.
...such stuff as dreams are made on...
I do believe that it is innate in man to ask questions that is why I want to continue my philosophical journey so as to articulate my findings of myself, the world and everything around me comfortably and with more accurate hypothesis. Like any other philosopher such as descartes I have to start from scratch to find where exactly I stand, I also do know that most of my questions have been asked by people far more intelligent than I am, for thousands of years but I would still continue to ask them for philosophers never gives up and I do think that the journey is most enjoyable, for whatever answer I would come across I know it would be overwhelming, disappointing scary and enlightening at the same time and if I let this go and doesn't continue with this journey i would be sure to feel incomplete forever and that is just unacceptable.
'We too are stardust'
There are growing questions that I must ask, so my journey starts here.
'When we look up at the sky, we are trying to find the way to ourselves.'
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Champagne Supernova
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Champagne Supernova
Oasis
Yes… I missed You too.
I miss the walk we walked…
I miss the hands we held
I miss the talk we had
I miss the inspiration You gave…
I miss the overwhelming joy that we shared…
I miss how we were connected
I miss hearing the whispers of Your sorrows
I miss becoming a faithful listener of Yours…
I miss crying out loud to You in the dark…
Yes…
God…
I miss You…
My Soul had been missing You… for a long time…
I am sorry…
I have missed You too
My soul has been desperately hungry for You too.
It was You
It was always You
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